sketch of life

It been sometime i have not updated this blog because of some tragic incident in my life. I lost my favorite person in my life my granny which made me not in form for anything. My feeling was totally blank that is the day i realized how it feels when your mind is blank you dont know what are you doing. Anyway time goes by for me to realize the fact but trust you wont know if you dont feel it by yourself.

I was very close to my granny because we know each other since i was a baby. I wouldn't know the time when i was too young to realize things at that time. She was my nanny at home when my parents will be away to work. I grown up from a family were we not rich but had food and some savings to live which i need to thank my dad. Now my dad is my personal financial consultant. My granny was good enough to take care of me and my sister.

Life goes on starting with kindergarten age whereby granny sends me and picks me up. Providing us food and taking care of us. Same routine everyday and i moved on to primary school. Granny had the same task but this time no need to fetch me home. I was big enough that's what my dad told me when left me at school. When my sister joined in to primary school granny was there everyday. Sister was making drama missing everyone need someone there. Thanks to granny again to be there.

Moving on the secondary school but granny had the same task. That time too lazy to eat lunch and granny will be running around with food asking me to eat. That is one of the reason i need gym package now. Hope i had it earlier. Granny use to complaint almost for everything but we didn't make it as a issue. Even granny use to complaint about me that i am disturbing her to my relatives but no one cares. My dad cared where i use to get lecture for hours. That is normal thing for that age. From secondary to college life. Things changed whereby involved stuff outside my house was rather then house issue. Mother use to complaint and her favorite dialogue "Is this your house or hotel".

College life to working life, god that's a major impact. That starts my life what is my next step what to do. How thing going to be? But thank god blessings was there i think i can survive in this world. I don't know what makes my granny happy she must come out of the house to send of to work. When i read her lips i can see she is praying for me. Sounds like this. God be with my son where were he goes what ever he does. Send him back home safely. Such a blessing you cant buy them with money its from the heart.

From the time she took care of me it changed to we taking care of her. I don't think many of you had that chance in life. I use to get fed up when she complaints but my dad told this. "Son, she is old and you have to be patient. You like it or not i will take care of her until her last breath" and he did it.

One think i am proud of i did the best for her. I learned a very good lesson in my life i hope this might trigger something to you all. Do ever leave your loved once behind. Always keep in touch. Granny was very happy to have everyone beside her. But she cant take it when there is time for us to continue of daily task. That could made her to get sick but i from my view it was. Granny got a stroke which we didn't realize but my mum was there to take care. Mum i really need to respect you on this. No one else could have done a great job as you did.

Mum was granny's nurse, doctor, maid or whatever. Mum did A to Z which i think no one else can actually stand. Cleaning granny everyday and i need to thank some good heart people who volunteered without us asking for help. I would say this people will always have blessing from granny. Counting her days without knowing the fact to live or die. Granny was admitted to the hospital. Something strike on my mind and i prayed also don't bring her back in the coffin but god decided so i can't go against him. Days in the hospital was a countdown in my life. Aunty, sister, the boys, my girlfriend, dad and me. Those were the people i think were there in the hospital with the last journey of granny in her life.

But the countdown stopped 1/12/2008 when i got the news. Before that went to the hospital spend sometime and back to office. Got a call again to come back and that was the last call for granny. I still remember the last moment the heart beat was going off when i hug her it came a while and it went off. There goes the last beat and final. Silent moments had to speak more then words.

I had no choice to be strong to hold things up. Mum, sister and dad i need them so i need to be calm to keep them up going. Even thought something was not pleasant i had only one thing in mind. I want the funeral the best for her and i make sure i did it. I hope she is happy to leave the world in happy way.

REST IN PEACE. We love you and you will be in our heart forever.